I am an imperfect person, and I am ok with that. And I can say that now, and really feel it, embrace it, and believe it. I am a human being with many flaws, and right now I can say that I am not ashamed of that, and I am at the point now where it is totally ok if others choose to not be ok with that.
My perfectionistic side has always been a bit problematic, and choosing to completely love myself, at my best and my worst, has been a challenging task. But I think deep down, our flaws don’t really matter, and we should forgive ourselves for our flaws – big or small. The other thing that I have had to choose, is to not really spend time worrying about what others may think of me. The one thing that does actually matter to me now, is whether I am trying to my best with what I have got. Whether I am trying my best to live by my values and be a good person, and whether I am always looking to improve myself and my life situation.
Why is it that we always get so caught up on our flaws? If our flaws make us more of who we are, then shouldn’t they be seen as a good thing? I actually feel that are flaws make us more beautiful and loveable, but it has taken me a long time to accept that truth for myself.
I grapple sometimes, with the fact that I am someone with a checkered past. And whilst most of you reading this will have a relatively good understanding of what I have been through, and also some of the struggles that I still have to this day, I still get caught up sometimes with that fear of someone rejecting me because of my past. But really, I must remind myself that I am actually very proud of what I have gone through, and that the people who may judge, reject or criticize don’t matter to me one bit. The right people, of which there are many, see my flaws and love me anyway, and that means the world to me, and has helped me too, to love myself completely – flaws and all.
I think losing my dear dad in February was a welcome reminder of what actually matters in life. And by that I mean, love, friendship, family, and being the best person you can be. I know my dad always tried to be the best person he could be, and I am happy to say that I am following suit. If you are struggling with accepting your own flaws, I would encourage you to think differently about them.
What is the point of constantly battling with your innate flaws? It is actually a waste of precious energy and time. If you can learn to see the whole you as imperfectly perfect, then life is going to be a lot more enjoyable. Life is a lot easier when you embrace yourself and your flaws completely and without any conditions. I will strive to always see myself in a balanced way and know that I really only care about what and who truly matters.
So, be courageous enough to accept yourself warts and all, and be courageous enough to go out into the world, as your imperfect self, and still kick arse at life.
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