We all go through difficult times in our life’s journey, that is a given. And even up until recently, I thought I was very well versed at dealing with challenges. I have a little switch that flicks on whenever I am challenged, which allows me to draw on resilience and strength, and allows me to always find an inherent positive within a negative situation. Because of this little switch, which has taken years to build within, I am able to stay positive, buoyant, hopeful and determined.
What I didn’t account for though, was the experience of grief. My wonderful, beloved Dad unfortunately left us and this world, only a couple of weeks ago on the 12th of February 2022. I have never felt pain so excruciating. And it hit me for six. My resilience seemed to be completely wiped out. I have been teary, pained, and prone to meltdowns. I didn’t see this coming. Even though we knew Dad didn’t have long left, I still wasn’t prepared for his passing.
We all grieve in different ways, and I think I just went headfirst into the throws of grief and loss. It has been 18 days, and today was the first day that I could properly breathe. Despite the grief and loss, I am able to see and feel some light. Dad is no longer suffering, and he is at peace now. I also instinctively know that he is not really gone… his spirit is with me. I know that he is now guiding me and supporting me from the spiritual realm. And this comforts me greatly.
I have had a few experiences which furthers cements this belief.
Greatly upset, on the way home in an uber, the night that dad passed… the song “Daughter” came on the radio. I knew this was a message from him, letting me know he was there with me. A few days later I asked dad to give me a sign that he was ok. I was driving in my car listening to music and I said in my mind to Dad that I would like to hear a certain song, to know that he was there. The next song that came on (out of hundreds of songs on my Spotify) was that particular song. I also had an energetic alignment earlier today, and I felt his presence right there next to me. Unmistakable.
As I move on in this process of grief, I am beginning to feel more at peace, and comforted to know that Dad’s spirit is still around me (and the rest of the family no doubt); and will be eternally.
As you may know, I am an avid writer. My second book Level Up, is all about spirituality, and so it seemed fitting to me, to dedicate this book (which I have just finished), to Dad. He was an avid writer himself, and a beautiful one at that. So, I hope this book makes my beloved Dad (now my angel in the sky) proud.
Kate xx
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