In the words of Three Days Grace – I hate everything about you (ED), so, why do I still love you??
So – What matters? And more importantly, what doesn’t?
Does being thin even matter in the slightest? Only according to an ED.
Why? Because weight loss becomes an addiction. It feels like you’re in control. It feels like you have the power. But you actually do not. The ED is in control. The ED has the power; to think otherwise is simply a delusion.
Sure, your health is so important. So, staying at a healthy weight can be a real concern for some, and it was for me. But being thin???? Not anywhere near as important.
Who you are as a person is important. Achieving your goals and dreams is important. And your personal relationships…oh so important.
Love, friendship, family, fun, adventure.
And really, for me, personal growth is very important. And to be honest, this incessant obsession with weight actually gets in the way of my personal growth. I am not really growing. I am stuck. All of my extra energy goes towards this obsession, where I could be using this energy for something greater and more meaningful.
I want to be kind; I want to be compassionate and patient. I want to be a better friend, partner, daughter, and sister. I want to move towards my goals and dreams. This is what matters most of all.
How do I step off this merry-go-round?
I have so many wonderful things, wonderful people in my life, and I am achieving some really great things. How can I shift the focus to what really matters at the end of the day?
This is the journey that I currently still find myself on. The fact that this weight obsession can crush my spirit on any given day, and ruining my sense of happiness, depending on the number that stares up at me from the scales… is simply ludicrous. I won’t let it win.
Mark my words.
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