The Journey.

When I was a little girl, I struggled to be seen or heard, yet that is all I wanted…Desperately. Because my twin brother was loud, boisterous and funny (sometimes at my expense), I was often found cowering in the corner, and eventually I gave up wanting to be seen or heard, and I resided myself to the fact that I wasn’t worth much, because I was not like him. Eventually all I actually ended up wanting was to not be seen or heard…to disappear completely…hence the beginning of my grinding journey into and out of anorexia, and the beginning of my arduous journey to find myself….

My life has seen many a miracle since that time… it was a miracle that I started eating again, it was a miracle that I recovered, and that I found in myself something that had disappeared completely when I was just a young girl. I found my worth, my confidence, and my passion to seize the day. This was once again lost, when I experienced equally hard challenges later down the track. Eventually though, I found this spark again, I found this desire to want to be seen and heard, and now I stand strong… having found myself. I have found within myself, a passion to live every day to its fullest, and enjoy life as I should have when I was growing up, many years ago. This is indeed, a miracle in and of itself, and I am so proud of what I have overcome.

Sometimes family related challenges bring me right back to feeling like that helpless girl, and I must remind myself that she no longer exists. That young girl, whilst she was always beautiful, has ceased to be. And what has taken her place is much more beautiful, and empowering. A woman… who is not scared to stand up for what she believes in, a woman who has a strong voice and who isn’t afraid to use it. This woman wants to be seen AND heard, and above all else, she wants to enjoy her life and enjoy all the wonderful people in it; because this is what she deserves (and what she has always deserved…she just didn’t know it).

The journey from this trepid young girl to this strong and confident woman, like I said, is an absolute miracle.

Miracles do happen, this couldn’t be truer, and I couldn’t be happier about it.

Love Kate xx