I am usually a super resilient soul… able to bounce back fiercely in the face of adversity… Able to see a positive whenever there is a negative, and forge ahead with high spirits, and with my hope and faith intact. Now though I am experiencing something in my life that is very difficult to bounce back from. I feel like my baseline has lowered and I am super sensitive.
My family has unfortunately had some very bad news. My dad is now on the path of battling brain and liver cancer, and whilst we are all trying to be positive, and whilst I am trying to be positive, the news has hit me for six.
I am not sure how to be resilient in the face of this news. I am not sure how to pick myself back up. I’ve never dealt with anything like this before, and I am questioning my strength. My usual negative to positive flip isn’t seeming to work as it has done countless times in the past.
Self-care is helping. Support from friends and family is helping. But I am finding it hard at work, to be the same person I have always been. Helping and supporting others whilst you feel like you need support yourself, is very difficult.
I am hoping that the initial shock and grief will subside eventually, and that I will get back on top of things. We are all aware that it is a long road ahead for Dad and for all of us and we hope and pray that things only improve from here.
One thing I have recently realized is just how precious life is and also how important it is to tell the people in your life how much you appreciate and love them. The people in our lives are what is important, and we must nurture these relationships and cherish them.
If you are one of the people that have called me or texted me recently, to support me during this time, I am truly grateful and I don’t know what I would do without your love, kindness and support.
I will continue to try and muster as much hope and resilience as I can… and I will meditate and pray for Dad’s health.
Love Kate xxx
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