At this festive time of year, I usually struggle with a little bit of weight gain, and hence, body image issues. And this year is no exception. It is inevitable because of all the birthdays and festivities that pop up around this time. I’m doing a bit better this year, as compared to the last few years, and that is mainly because I gave myself a buffer… I lost a fair bit of weight last year, so a couple of extra kilos aren’t upsetting me too much. But I wanted to draw attention to this issue and say to everyone to spare a thought right now for the many people out there that struggle with food and body image issues. I am so incredibly lucky that I have managed to overcome my struggles, but there are many out there who haven’t. And I recognize just how difficult Christmas can be for these people. In fact, I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy.
The majority of us look forward to eating and drinking more over this time… it is good to indulge, have fun and be merry. I include myself in this cohort now…. Although body image issues are always in the back of my mind… perhaps I will never be free from that pre-occupation.
When I was in the throws of anorexia in my teenage years, I loathed the food related expectations that came along with Christmas time. I would either eat nothing, or have a Sustagen drink, and I would not sit at the dining table… preferring to sit alone and keep to myself. I never thought I would get to the stage where I could actually be a part of the festivities and enjoy the food and drinks like a “normal” person.
But alas, with time, and a lot of hard work, I overcame those demons that would force me to the sidelines at Christmas time. Like I said… I may never be completely free of the pre-occupation around my body and weight, but it is only a small issue now, and I try to enjoy myself… because I know I deserve that.
I guess that is a key message here really. I never felt like I deserved to be a part of all the fun. I never felt like I deserved to enjoy food or enjoy myself at all. But over the years I have fallen in love with myself, and I now I feel worthy and deserving of everything that my heart truly desires. And I recognize how blessed I am to be in this space. But again, spare a thought for those people dealing with an eating disorder and/or body images issues… it can be an exceptionally difficult time for them.
Merry Christmas,
And Be Merry!
Love Kate xx
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