Happiness

I have literally never been this happy. There is one very important thing to say though as a follow up to this statement. This happiness isn’t actually to do with my external circumstances at this very time… which are just…amazing…for your information. This is actually to do with my internal world. It is no mistake though, that I believe our internal world often can be reflected in our external world… When things are good inside, things generally look much better outside. And it has taken me some time to get my internal world looking as fabulous as it currently does.

For those of you who know me very well, you know that I have been through very hard times in my early years. Then things got a lot better… with love, work and life in general. That wasn’t the end of my journey though. Since leaving me ex-fiancé roughly 4 years ago, I have been on another journey. Maybe not exactly as difficult as the journey I went on from the ages of 14-26, but difficult, none the less. I have had to find myself again. I have had to try and find inner happiness, self-love and joy… being an independent single gal. I have questioned a lot over the past 4 years… “have I made a horrible mistake?” But I know now that it wasn’t a mistake, to leave my life behind and try and manifest something better…more fulfilling, and something that really ‘fit’ me down to a tee.

I have cried many tears, I have had many a sleepless night, but this doesn’t compare to the amount of internal strength that has grown inside as a result of me, doin’ it on my own. I know now that this was the right path for me, and I have proved to myself that I can be an independent, hard-working, ass kicking woman… who is full of self-love, self-acceptance, and inner peace.

Over these past 4 years I have accomplished a lot…. Not necessarily to be seen by the untrained eye… but to me… I can see it. But the most important thing that I have accomplished, by far, is my ability to completely love and accept who I am, warts and all. Let me tell you, if your life isn’t going exactly the way you want it to… it is ok… to shut down, and then reboot.

The lesson we can all take away from this is that if you truly find within yourself, your own sense of self-love and your own sense of joy and happiness, then your external world, will flourish, in response. I am not going to list the things that I am happy about. The important thing is, that I am happy, inside.

Suffice to say, if I can do it, I know that anyone can, despite past or present adversities. It has been a long, difficult road, but I have so many incredible things to be grateful for. And I cannot wait to see what the future holds. And lastly, I just want to thank my friends and family, even the ones I don’t see too often, as you are all amazing.