I still struggle with body image some days. Some days its intense. It feels like a nightmare on those days…. Because I’ve come from a space, many years ago where I didn’t eat… where all I could think about was weight-loss and being thin…to now, being in a space where I have to take medication that has the unfortunate side effect of making me a bit heavier. To say that its hard is an understatement. I have to practice radical self-love and self-acceptance, which is very hard on those really bad days. But what I try to hold onto on those days… is the fact that the majority of the time, I’m actually okay with myself. On the other not so bad days, I feel immense gratitude for all the things in my life, and I feel immense gratitude for the fact that I have a beautifully functioning mind and body. This is what keeps me going. I actually have to say this… I never in a million years would have thought I could love myself, despite not being size 6 or size 8. And whilst I do have my bad days, I can still at the end of the day, love who I am, inside and out. I believe you can be beautiful at any size, and I thank the people in my life now who make me feel beautiful, despite not having “model” looks. But more than anything else, I give thanks to me, because I know it can be hard, but I manage to make sure I show myself unconditional positive regard on most days, and I can leave my apartment feeling love for myself, and feeling confident that I am… okay, and more than that… I am uniquely beautiful in my own way (as is absolutely EVERYONE).
Love Kate xx
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