I don’t write much anymore. I guess I feel like I’m done with that stage of my life. I spent a lot of time writing and reflecting and when I look over the stuff that I have written, I am very proud of the young woman I was. So insightful and so inspiring, to be honest. What has happened to that young woman? Is she gone?
No, I don’t think she has gone. I think she has grown… and changed. I spend less time reflecting now and more time doing. I’m in an action phase. Which is not to say that I don’t still need time to reflect and look deeply at certain situations. It’s actually very important to take a breather and look around and take stock of where you are in this thing called life.
But I am certainly ready for change and change is where its at right now. I’m ready for a new chapter, and I feel it coming on. I’m embarking on a new journey into eastern medicine, and I couldn’t be more passionate about this. The young woman that was so passionate about her work in mental health, has grown and changed. I feel like I have gotten what I needed from my time working in mental health. I have totally overcome the self-stigma that I felt many moons ago. I am so comfortable with my diagnosis, that in fact, I barely even think about it anymore. I know deep down that, regardless of having a mental health diagnosis, I can achieve anything I put my mind too…. And I have proven that, time and time again. I’ve moved on from that now.
Its time for brand new adventures. Its time for brand new challenges. And I’m excited for what’s coming. I have a couple of months before I begin my studies, and I am going to use that time to get healthy and balanced again. I think I have been a bit unbalanced (with food and alcohol and lack of exercise) and I have lost my mojo a bit over the past few months. I’d say this is because I’ve lost the passion for the work that I am currently doing, not to mention the fact that my romantic pursuits have gotten me absolutely nowhere. But yes. I am going to get my shit together over the next few months. Get healthy again and ready to embrace a new chapter of studying Chinese medicine and acupuncture. I’m sure this change will usher in new, positive energy.
When it comes to romantic relationships, I feel this isn’t actually the right time for that… I was trying to push for it and hope for the best, but its simply not the time.
I look forward to the day, in a few months’ time, when I can say “I am happy, healthy, balanced and READY for a new chapter” in terms of relationships. Then I’m totally sure, things will begin to present. I have total faith in that.
Right now, though. I have some serious work to do.
Wish me luck!!
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