Sometimes I wonder what the point of all this is.
When struggle-town becomes more of a home than a temporary holiday destination.
I would definitely prefer to set up my mortar and bricks somewhere in Hawaii.
I often ask myself… What does it all mean? When will it get easier? What…. Is the point?
When I look at my life. I see a lot of good things. I see a lot of blessings. But it becomes easy to see that maybe sometimes the struggle can override everything that is good in the world of Kate.
The struggle makes me tired, it makes me wonder what life would be like without the consistency of the hard climb.
There a few things I have come up with. Maybe we are here to learn certain things and overcome certain obstacles. In my case, I feel like I’m doing a friggin master’s degree. But maybe this is true. My lessons and my obstacles to overcome, are all within the realm of overcoming what others think. And within the realms of overcoming judgment and moving forward, despite hardship. I am here to master the art of resilience. I can get knocked over, and over, and over again…. And I have learnt to pick myself up every. Single. Time. And I have learnt to always look… for that silver lining and see my challenges as opportunity for growth.
I have times when the struggle dissipates, and I can truly enjoy the fruits of life. But recently these times have been few and far between.
I always try to remember how lucky I am to have beautiful people in my life. I don’t take this for granted. But again, when I am challenged, even this fact ceases to make me feel much better.
Sometimes I grieve for the life I had way back when. Before things got so complicated and complex. But all I can do is brush myself off and keep going, and thanking the universe for the little wins along the way.
I’m not writing this to evoke a sense of worry in whomever reads this. There is one thing that I can assure you. I will never give up. I will never let things defeat me. I may have my days, like this one, where I have to reflect and reflect and reflect. I may have days, like this one, where I have to come to a sense of inner equilibrium. I need to fill my cup up, every so often, and just practice the art of self-love and self-compassion. Today is one of those days.
Do you know what I wish? I wish I could inspire others whom are travelling similar journeys, to keep going, to never give up, and to love and care for themselves, no matter what. This is my mission. And I will keep going and keep moving forward towards this goal. Through writing and speaking. This is when I feel so incredibly driven, and motivated and passionate… to the point where it all makes sense.
I’m going through these difficult times, and consistent battles, in order to help others follow suit. I don’t know yet how this is going to happen or what this is going to look like. But I’m excited to find out.
I know what the point of all this is.
Love Kate xx
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