If you are one of those people who KNOW they are constantly learning and growing… life can indeed be a magical journey. To us, change is seen as a positive thing… life has a sense of adventure and a sense of awe. I have experienced much of this in the past few years; finding my way into working in mental health and finding my way into public speaking endeavors (to name a few).
Many of you who know me however, will also know that this past year has been extremely difficult… in the sense that I have known that I have needed to move on from my relationship with my ex-fiance…. I have had to cut and run, because I have outgrown the relationship with the person I thought was my forever soul mate. People who know me know that I have been through a lot in my days… yet I can honestly say this:
Leaving someone that I truly love is the hardest thing I have ever done… and that is no exaggeration.
Since September last year, I have cried countless tears, for the loss of the relationship that for many years, kept me going and kept me happy and well. Sure, there have been some amazing times since then also… finding success and happiness in a new profession… realising the strength and beauty of some of my amazing friendships that I have in my circle of support… life has presented me with many new and exciting possibilities and opportunities… and I have felt so blessed and still do. But I have continuously grappled with the decision to move on… from him.
Whilst I know how the universe works, whilst I trust that I have made the right decision to leave… it has been the source of many nights wishing I wasn’t outgrowing people in my life… sometimes I feel resentful towards the fact that I am one of those ‘lucky’ people whom are always growing and morphing into the best possible version of themselves.
Do you see my predicament?
Do you see that my life is always getting better day by day? But that also I have had to leave behind the one person that actually got me to this very point in my life?
It hardly seems fair.
But all I can do is trust that things will unfold as they are meant to.
And be thankful for the amazing memories of love and the memories of the magical times that we did weave together for those 4 years.
I can only ask if you are reading this, to wish me the best of luck in my journey to being the best Kate I can be and give me the strength to move on…
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